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(photo by Oliver Poon)

工具考 4

這不是什麼奇異的工具。不過是新用了一塊焊板，燒了幾次後，留下了不經意的圖案。看著教我想起Miró，還有蔡國強的火藥畫。

燒焊時，著眼點當然不在焊板，無謂胡謅什麼宇宙渾沌呀、潛意識呀、暴力美學呀等唬人的大題目。但把燒好的金屬拿開，放進酸洗液裡等氧化物剥落時，總有那麼幾分鐘的時間，讓我看著這塊板，為這純粹的美，感到一陣本能的愉悅。

近來

Standing in the Way of Control

我來到一個年紀，每遇友人，話題總離不開結婚生子供樓供車供保險……由早到晚,要勉強我們做好的事接二連三。有些人甘如飴之，如魚得水，讓人由衷地替他們高興；有的人卻像走苦路似的，把一個接一個的人生抉擇如與生俱來的任務般扛上身，越走越動彈不得。三十來歲的人，最大的願望竟已是退休了。

那是你的生命，我無話可說。我只是想，無論是你所負責任的人，還是為你負責任的人，每一個人，也只能活一生。

近來很喜歡的Beth Ditto：

The Gossip - Standing In The Way Of Control

Your back's against the wall
There's no-one home to call
You're forgetting who you are
You can't stop crying
It's part not giving in
And part trusting your friends
You do it all again
And I'm not lying

Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh
Oh ohh Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh

Standing in the way of control
You live your life
Survive the only way that you know

I'm doing this for you
Because it's easier to lose
And it's hard to face the truth
When you think you're dying
It's part not giving in
And part trusting your friends
You do it all again
But you don't stop trying

Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh
Oh ohh Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh

Standing in the way of control
You live your life
Survive the only way that you know

Oh ohh Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh
Oh ohh Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh

Standing in the way of control
We live our lives
Because we're standing in the way of control
We will live our lives
Because we're standing in the way of control
We live our lives
Because we're standing in the way of control
We will live our lives

爭取的東西各有不同，但唯有自己掌握軚盤，那條命才是你的。